No I didn't die, although maybe I felt like I did a few times.  2006?  REALLY?  Wow, well, part of it was I lost my pass and found myself too lazy to fight with the e-mail beast.  I'm honest, I hate wading through e-mail sometimes... at least the ones with spam.

OKAY, so let's sum up life since god knows when and catch us up on the wonderfully screwed up world of Mintaka.

A) I have been diagnosed with Bipolar - I'm pretty sure though mine's type II, not I, as my phases seem faster and my manic phases aren't quite as long.  (Even though sometimes I wish I had full weeks of them when they're the productive types).  And yes, I realize there's a trend or hipness to the claim but for the record - it's NOT.  It's an ungodly ugly monster that really can tear your life apart.  Since 2003 it's been a steady decline of me v. it, and I think it won for the moment - I really just... can't... function like a normal person doing normal things expected.  Hell, I can't handle stupid little things.  SO YEAH.  That's been the all-consuming truth of what's wrong with me and why I'm a fuck up sometimes.  Mood swings all over, rage, sadness, creative streaks, the whole nine yards.  I was officially diagnosed in Aug./Sept. of 2008 - that's when I finally could put my finger on it and go AHA and notice the cycle out of depression into the manic.

B) ...well, really, there isn't a B per se.  My life is in a standstill degradation backslide thanks to Bipolar pretty much ruling me instead of me being in control.  And honestly, there's times more and more I'm not sure I'll ever get this beast under control and finally MOVE ON and be a 'normal person' with a job and all that.  

So yeah, that's how that stands, for those who weren't aware of what was going on.  Which is at least some -- some of you I see on Gaia Online and know I've been around again online after an 8+ month hiatus for no seeming reason.  Life happened and I was having issues handling the bipolar and coming back online would be worse for me, and I didn't want to lash on people I consider friends.

I'm going to see if I can't get some art up here again - even if it's dumb sketches and such - aka not full color inked works, but something kind of pretty.  I'm just PO'd because I can't seem to ever fix my arting issues.  BOOOO.

I really need to update my page.

Oh wait, I did forget, this has been since 06... in 2008 I also had the fun of discovering that I have acid reflux - AND I can no longer stomach caffeine - it makes my stomach hurt HORRIBLY.  So I had to give that up.  I still have the damn thing too... it flares up sometimes and other times isn't so bad.  Also when Burning Crusades released for World of Warcraft, that's when I started playing.  I play both factions, on different servers, for the record.